When people say....

WE HATE YOU
YOU SAY
I LOVE YOU

WE DON'T THINK YOU DESERVE IT.
YOU SAY
EVERYONE IS ENTITLED TO THEIR OWN OPINION.

ineedtoliveon...forgodsake......ineedthestrengthfromabove

Understand me

rain cloudless-ly
waterless wetness
wound-less wound
painless pain

can you see it?

Reminiscing Normally.Normal.Noun

~MEMORY~

The time has come for me

to reminisce the past

that i had walked through.

life isn't getting younger

days are coming

years are ongoing.

it is time for me

to be true

i'm not perfect

i'm not who i portray

don't hope on me

cause i might be wrong.

BUT,

i try to be strong.

i know.

life is about living it.

Hemingway said: Life will breaks us all but at the end of it, we are stronger at the broken places.

dream.....reaching it

~I KEEP BELIEVING ~

its raining.....and i'm leaving

SUNDAY: 13 SEPTEMBER 2009
KLIA-DEPARTURE HALL
TIME: 5.00PM
DESTINATION: HEATRHOW ,LONDON, UNITED KINGDOM
UNIVERSITY:CANTERBURY CHRISTCHURCH UNIVERSITY,KENT, UNITED KINGDOM
DURATION: 3 YEARS
FLIGHT: MALAYSIAN AIRLINES


i truly wish those information above are mine, unfortunately its my cohort 1 cycle 3 seniors flight info's. i'll be sending them off at klia this very evening. As am typing this post, i wonder what will i feel this evening-will i be sad, happy, or etc? lucky them, they will be spending a heaven 3 years
whereas i'm stuck here for another bloody 5.5 years....... i still wonder why did our gov. put off the overseas link program(except due to the fact of economy down turn )? i thought they REALLY want to produce high quality ESL teachers? or is it another political game they wanna put on?(ops haries! restriction needed!). not to say that we are lack of ESL experts in Malaysia, its just the best for a language learner to learn it from the natives!

i shall wait for miracle to happen!

AND for Cohort 1 seniors, enjoy your journey. come back with the best result off all. i wish all of the best of luck! =)

malay language...almost forgotten

time.experience.change

lama dah tak tulis blog and dah lama tak tulis dalam mother tongue. i was browsing my 1st entry, hahaha lawak sangat rasa sebab dulu masa mula-mula tulis blog i wrote in melayu. rindu rasa nak tulis and cakap melayu fluently. banyak benda dah jadi dalam hidup-

baik.buruk.gembira.sedih.

tempat baru
persekitaran baru
kawan baru
gaya belajar baru
pensyarah baru
tanggungjawab baru


betul apa orang kata:

jangan berpegang pada masa lalu,
ia akan menarik kamu bersamanya,
jadikan nya teladan,
untuk masa depan.

if i behold to my past,
i'll surely cry day and night,
wanting my old maybe glorious life,
sacrifices made for reason.

pagi tadi Ym dengan Ina, rindu sangat dengan dia. Dia kat UKM sekarang and she said she's pretty lonely overthere. I boleh rasa apa yang dia rasa coz i'm experiencing it too. Hidup perlu perubahan.

You need to move on.
I'm moving on.

*forgive me for the excessive usage of "Rojak phrases"*
*saya dah hilang seni menulis bahasa melayu!! ouch!*

~entry gila tidak bermotif ini adalah hasil kekaratan otak dan kerinduan menulis kemerepekan~
~ambik yang baik, delete yang buruk~

I've Finally decided...

Ya Allah Ya Rahman

Ampunkan dosaku, kedua ibu bapa dan seluruh Muslimin dan muslimat

Ya Allah

permudahkan urusan ku di tempat baru nanti

terangkan lah hati ku supaya dapat mendalami ilmu dengan ikhlas dan sempurna

Ya Rahman Ya rahim

Berkati lah perjalan ku disana nanti

Kau tunjukkan jalan dan sinari lah hikmah pada diriku ini

Aku bersyukur pada anugerah mu ini dan aku percaya inilah keputusan yang terbaik bagi kehidupan ku

jika aku telah memilih jalan yang sebaliknya

dan

andai telah tertulis di luhmahfuz akan kegagalan maka ubahlah ia menjadi kejayaan..Engkau yg Maha Agung

Kau tukarkan penentuannya kerna Engkaulah Yang Maha Berkuasa

supaya diakhirnya nanti peroleh kebaikan yang hakiki

Ya Allah

Permudahkan niat ku untuk menjadi guru kepada anak-anak bangsa dan agama.

Amin

i have finally decided. the verdict:

International Languages Teachers Training Institue

Which One??

Bachelor Education TESL(Hons)

OR

English(primary)/English Literature/ MathSc

B.Ed.TESl (Hons)

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i'm just so happy!

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4 more years to go before I'll be granted with a degree.

Finally......as planned

I'm foremost...speechless.
Thank You Allah.

Syurga Cinta.....a must watch movie

I had been wanting to watch this movie since its Ads. was published on Tv. Though I'm not a much fan of Malay movies but this one sure captured my attention. Its a blend of comedy, love and tragedy of the reality of our Malaysian society . Not wanting to spoil the ending nor the beginning of the movie for you guys, I strongly suggest that you watch it yourself.


It gave me a Self-bite of reality on how i lead my life. I learned a lot through the movie. One must reminder- prepare to laugh and cry. Its a new experience for me watching Malay movie* i loveeeee only Yasmin Ahmad movies*.

And i went to a Book Warehouse Sale-a true sale 70% & 90& discounts. Bought myself two books and a weird French singer cd. Damage of the day Rm 33.........

happiness and devastation.........

Happiness:




I got through Medsi test! Happy that most of my close friends got it too. Cried when I receive the news while having lunch with Ina and Aj.they got it too. Foundation is over.

Sadness:


Some of my friend didn't get the interview though they are the prominent one in the faculty. Hope they are okay right now. Don't give up guys!



Being back home was a big mistake to do. I'll reside at Ipoh later after the interview. Seriously, its a painful thing to be at home coz it not my home!

just to say....

~Friendship is always a sweet responsibility, never an oppurtunity.~

Hahahahahaha...so funny!!

A New Zealand man was having coffee and croissants with butter and jam

in a cafe when an Aussie tourist
chewing gum, sat next to him.  

The New Zealander politely
ignored the Australian, who,
never the less started up a conversation.

The Australian snapped his gum and said,
'You Kiwi folk eat the whole bread?' 

The Kiwi frowned,
annoyed with being bothered during his breakfast,
and replied, 'Of course.'

The Australian blew a huge bubble. 'We don't.
In Australia , we only eat what's inside.
Then we collect the crusts, recycle  them,
and transformthem into croissants
and sell them to New Zealand .'

The Aussie had a smirk on his face.
The Kiwi listened in silence.The Aussie persisted.
'D'ya eat jam with the bread?'
Sighing, the Kiwi replied, 'Of course.'

Cracking his gum between his teeth, the Aussie said,
'We don't.In Aussie, we eat fresh fruit for breakfast,
then we put all the peels, seeds and leftovers
in containers, recycle them, transform them
into jam and sell them to New Zealand .'

The Kiwi then asked,
'Do you have sex in Australia ?'

The Australian smiled and

said, 'Why of course we do.'

The New Zealander leaned closer to him and asked,
'And what do you do with the condoms once you've used them?'

'We throw them away, of course.' says the Aussie.
'We don't, says the Kiwi. 'In New Zealand ,
we put them in a container,
recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum
and sell them to Australia .
Why do you think it's called Wrigley's?'

and she locked the door.....

oh...my Grammar Lecturer Locked the door to our Lecturing Hall. She said we can have 10 minutes break but we when to American Indulgence Festival instead but we were only late by 5 minutes!! Oh, now how I hate 'UK way of Teaching'...Argh!!!!(not really)

btw: UK graduate lecturers are like this is it?