Day 7| still without....

Are you happier without me?

Do you feel relieved without me by your side?

So, now, can you befriend with other people?

Is this that you ever wanted all this time?

Have you found the real you yet?

Dear, my utmost dream for my best friend would be to see him happy. There’s nothing happier than seeing a friend happy and enjoy his life. Even it is by mean to end of our friendship. I truly can’t live without you but if that is the best decision from above, who am I to deny it? I was hoping day and night that things will end well. I have had enough of regretting yesterday and dreading tomorrow. I have had enough nightmares and sleepless nights. All I ever wanted for now is to see tonight’s stars and tomorrow’s sunshine; these 7 days have disclosed me from the world. It was shadowed by the tempest, gloomy clouds, thunders, lightning and unimaginable rain.

I prayed to God every second of the time, so that He will take this pain away and cleanse it with His blessing. I call for mercy from above and I prayed hard that whatever decision I’m going to make will not be influenced by satan or my cold-hearted heart. I only want the best for both of us. I’m giving a chance to myself to fix this relationship. Because:

Life is definitely a road with countless hills, valleys, curves, barriers, and dead ends. It’s a damn hard journey a lot of the time. I have survived so far, sometimes surmounting nearly impossible challenges. Of course I can see that looking back. Today, though, I’m having trouble even drawing on the previous victories I’ve had. I’m blank today- like someone wiped out the slate that stored all my strength. And damn I need that today! Maybe tomorrow something good will happen. Please God-send me some inspiration. If you don’t- I swear I’ll die

The best of all will surface out of sufferance and failure is the key to any success.

And do you still remember the quotation I text you the other day?

Living life is like writing an essay with tons of plots and characters.

Our friendship is the tons of plots and we are the characters and whatever obstacles are the body of the essay. That is the ordeal of life, sometimes it turns upside down. But you can always see the star and moon even in the very pitch darkness of the night.

I am optimistic now.

I want to knot it.

I need you.

I really wanna fix our relationship.

But I want your move to be sincere, if you feel reluctant, don’t!

Please don’t make the decision just to please me. Make that sole reason to fix this come from your true heart. If you believe this is the best, I’m waiting.

If not, I wanna thank you for all those wonderful time, the chillis and sticker you bought me, all your sweet gestures and your wonderful attitude. I cannot bring myself to write bad things about you coz to me you are a wonderful person! It’s a blessing to have known you..

If you still think that I’m your best friend and we are meant to be together, I’m waiting for your smile and gesture at class, just come and say Hi and everything will be just fine.J

And if I’m not, stop playing this game. It’s not worth.

ps: bout the call thingy,,,i tak merajuk,,,,i just wanna fix things up.....