Dear God, it's okay if You fated me to be single forever but please don't give me false hope. It's tiring Dear God. :'(

I'm too tired... For the 1st time I feel like crying... at the moment that I thought that I wanna change my sexuality and I thought I found the right girl, God took it away. The moment I thought I found the right guy, it turns out that he was in a relationship with a girl all this while, I only know when they brake up tonight. Can't I just have a one time pure love?