I might not be there,
but my heart is,
though am hurt,
there's never a moment that I forget about all of you,
We've been apart since I was little,
and now,
my nightmare is happening in daylight,
am seperated again,
with You and yOu and yes yoU too.
my years have never been the same,
since I departed,
it's empty,
though i find happiness sometimes,
through my pain,
it's never satisfying.
Sad thing isn't it?
We are all ego,
I have my ego,
you have it too,
but I don't blame all of you,
It's my fault,
I left; on my own will.
but I left because,
I was hurt,
I might be smiling,
I might be laughing,
I might be cheering people
from their misery,
but,
deep down, inside,
am dying;
am never able to smile, laugh and cheer myself.
I want to redeem myself,
I want to prove to you,
I will be the "me" that you wanted me to be;
though I have no idea how ideal you want "me" to be.
It has been 4 seasons twice,
coming to the third cycle now,
a few earthquakes,
some eclipses,
a few thunderstorms and
many millions seconds gone.
All I want now is to be home,
where I feel home.
One to call mine.
and be loved and to love.
and nothing else.
